Change?

The following blog, is just a personal point of view. 

There is something in the world, that I felt is much stupid when I heard people said that…”I want to change to be a better person to suits blah blah blah…” Be it the world, persons, environment…we need not to change, we can adapt… Adapt to follow the flow isn’t changing what we are. Adapt to the circumstances isn’t making us no longer us. BUT, if needed me to change just for the sake to suits, to compliment, to complete or even to change the other person…I won’t at all. Call me whatever you like, disagree with me, curse me, when you are thinking that changing to suits isn’t wrong. 

Human will change, no doubt. And some will change to positive direction, and vice versa. But this kind of changes aren’t meant for just to suit, it’s for the person to go on in life. “If you want to change someone, firstly you need to change yourself”. Do you agree with it? I don’t. I did not see the point to make other change and becoming another person that I do not know. Why want to change them since they are who they are, when we are with them, and when we befriend with them. If there is a necessarity to make bond grow stronger, is changes alone enough? Too naive to say that no need to think of the complexity, simply is the best. Now tell me, is anyone here now, feeling their life is simple and easy? I am not trying to emphasize that life is hard, life is cruel, life is not easy and life is complicated. I am trying to bring out the reality of it. Tell me, that I am wrong to think that life isn’t easy.

There is this person told me that consideration is on the top ranking for bonds. Understanding isn’t the main point, due to people can change and understood a person now, doesn’t mean will understands them later in future. Correct, people may change, but not all. People may understand u now, but not later. But come to the point, people will considerate for now, but may not in future also. These are very subjective, and they are viable…can’t be determined for just one value. When talking bonds, not to forget the tolerance. But yet, only tolerance itself, can’t secure a bond. There are a lot more points that will ensure bond grow stronger and better… Come to think of it, without understanding, will consideration alone work it out? Without Consideration, will tolerance work? Without Tolerance, will undertanding work? All elements in the earth work in a way that they compliment each other and they balance each other. None of them should be too exceeding and none of them should be far lesser or inferior.  

I am not trying to pursuade everyone to agree with me, in this term. Anyone can have different opinion. This is why we are called individual. We differ and we have own characteristic that’s as unique as a limited edition. Only one in the world that is behaving exactly like me, and that’s me…Only one in the world that behave exactly like you, and that’s you. We are borned to be different and unique. Other will only compliment us, or complete us from whom we are on this earth, in this life. So do our role. We will compliment or complete other as well. This is how we balance each other. Be it in relationship or friendship. Friends won’t get along well, if they don’t have the bond. So do relationship.  Sorry to say, but it will be too naive to just said that  consideration alone can makes things well (refer to da previous paragraph). Or either one of the element is already more than enough to bond?! For me, this totally not working at all.

Maybe I really see the world too complicated. And maybe I really takes it too hard. But in reality, fairy tales is just a fantasy and to live the life on earth, is not a fantasy. Even to see miracle, we need to be the luckiest among the lucky. 

In short, we can change, change for a better us, change to a better us, …this is not selfish. Ask your friend, will they want not you to change to a better person? We ask ourself, do we need not our friend to change to a better person? Changes is a process of life, and it doesn’t always mean that change and we are not the same. We can change and at the same time preserve the good value that we have. That will be ultimate goal, for changed, yet can preserved the pros in life. But don’t we just change, for just because we want to suit in other’s life. I will not change. I will takes in consideration, tolerance and understanding. I can’t leave any of them out…Just can’t.

Maybe this looks like such an ignorance to you…it meant a lot to me.

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How far can I become the good person? Driving alone back to hometown on Saturday morning, I saw an elderly Malay woman standing nearby the roadside waving hand for help. I saw the first two vehicles just passed by without having a stop.  I stopped, and asked the Makcik…what is happening? Is she needing some help?  So, without suspecting anything, I actually gave her a ride from the junction to the nearby bus stop because she wanted to take the bus. 

This reminds me of some incidents back…a few years ago. I saw a dog dead body neaby my housing area. The dead puppy was so ppity, it was maybe killed during a hit and run accident. And the body just left lying on the road without anyone bother to remove it. So, I cycle to the place, I dragged the body to the nearby grass field. Over there, I asked my sister’s help to get me a bladed hoe. I digged a hole for us to burried the dead puppy body, and over there an alderly woman saw what we were doing, she even offer me a smaller hoe so dat it’s easier for me to dig. She mentioned something like, she also wanted to burry the dead puppy, but she alone can’t do it, that’s why, she just left it there, until she saw us. She even said something like, actually she thought there will be nobody is willing to burry the dead puppy, because it was harden and getting smelly…I replied her that I could not bear to see the dead puppy body lying on the road like that, and I just came back to burry it.

Another incident whereby I remember is…when I am cycling along the roadside, there is this elderly woman standing next to a telephone booth, trying to make a call. (That time, mobile phone technology is very expensive and not everyone can afford it) I stopped when the Makcik called for help. I asked for what I can help, and she actually wanted to call her nephew. She couldn’t dial the number because the coin wasn’t match. So, I try to look for some coin in my pocket, and I gave her some to try…I asked her the number, and helped her to call…Realising that the number is a mobile number, I asked the Makcik to keep the remaining coins, in case she need to talk a bit longer with her nephew. The Makcik ask me my house phone number, she can call me and return me the coins, when she met up with her nephew, but I insisted that she no need to return, it’s just a small matter, and the amount wasn’t large at all. 

Hmm….I am thinking, will there be such a person to help me, when I am in need in future?

Water day….

19th February 2009.
When I am browsing internet in the lab, I heard noises like water pouring in the laboratory…very much nearby…
Although outside was raining cats and dogs, I didn’t think that the rhythm of the pouring rain can be so near. Wen, went out to take a look, for what had happened. Lovelybear went out to take a look and came back, with no expression. I am so eager to know what had actually happened, then both me and WoonChing walked out to the corridor…and….
What the heck, water indeed pouring in the lab corridor, and the water running fast, soon, it’s enough to flow into Ram’s lab, Song’s lab, Cathy’s lab, and Chow’s lab.
All of us so stunned by the magnificent incident until we can’t even bother to take any action to stop the water from pouring and flowing into labs.
The air-ventilation technician who happen to check in level3 corridor quickly turned off some pump or whatever that they had loosen to cause the water pouring.
This was the very first time, water pouring into the corridor…at level3… lolz…
And the guys mopping the floor at the corridor to clean off the after effect by the incident…
WoonChing manage to capture some photos, of them cleaning…haha…so do Alfred.
19th Feb…Water Day at Monash building 3 level 3… lolz… :p

classmates…sayonara!

I am so sick of childish attitude form a classmate of mine. I just don’t understand how on earth that someone can behave like that. How on earth that someone still not grown up even though already reaching the age of 26 years old. 

My meet ups at pyramid canceled and it’s all due to the attitude of ffk-fong fei kei. I am so damn sucked up when i receive a call at 1 something am in sunday (15th feb) morning that there will be lesser paople going because certain people ffk. Then I receive another bad news as in, asking me to cancel at all the meet ups, due to no support at all.

Hey, come on. Come to think of it, it’s not me who want to organise the meet up. I already met those that have been diasppear for one year, and the only chance to meet up with them is during Chinese New Year. I had my friends reunion. And this is the class of 5sc2 that was asking for a meet up, replacement reunion for the class. So, I am actually just trying to help out. I am not the main organiser and at last, I am making myself one, since those who are together with me,pulled off. I am not blaming them to pull off, at least got some classmates responded and are willing to go, with replies via sms.

But then, bad news as in, someone in the class also was believed to be responsible for sabotage my meet ups. Initially I am asking why girl F is ffking, and she said guy T is mentioning no one is going, so she don’t want to show up as well. Thus, people keep on pulling off until I had to call off the meet up at 1 something in the morning!

Who-so-ever is doing the sabotage, he is so damn deep in trouble. I won’t make any revenge, but becareful of his life in the future. I am watching….I am watching….

And to the sc2 classmate, don’t ever trying to complain that there is no meet ups. Effort had been done by the organiser, it’s just you, yourself isn’t supportive enough to make it a successful event. Trying to make every steps to make our friendship stays and trying to keep in touch with all of you, is very hard. In this term, I would rather just stay and keep in touch with those who are really willing to make commitment, who are willing to support, not those, of you…who only knows how to bugged…but never did do your part.

Sayonara….to these so-called classmates. I am not saying that all of you are like that. Only a small portion…and I don’t want to mention names. Whoever did it, you know it better than me. 

Don’t say that I am mean. this isn’t the first time…and I won’t make it another time, again. There shall be no other time. Whatever is your palnning, don’t count me in, I am comfortable with the 6scD classmates…Ting, Munn, Vicky, WengKit, and CheeWai are even better than the rest of the sc2 classmates…we already had numerous successful meet ups, because we are committed. We aren’t like you…so…goodbye…you suckers!!!

Friday 13th

It’s Friday 13th yesterday.  I should have not to go out to the interview. I should have known that disaster will happened. When I am to print out the CV, I realised that the printer at the home spoiled. And then, the next morning whereby I suppose to wake up at 7am, became 8am….the rushing had make me a losing out my coolness and luckily, Nasrun was there to help.

Anyway, the real disaster happened when I reached UMMC. I could not find a way to park and at last, I went into UM medic faculty and pack inside a so called staff parking but with a lot of students parking there. i saw an empty place and I took it after waiting for 10 minutes for the driver to get out! I carefully reverse parking but, I didnt saw the high bumper at behind, and there I go, hit the back and 2 screws poped out. I didnt manage to pick up da screws, I was in hurry. I just left it and I went off to the interview.

Later, I waited for almost an hour and a half for the interview, because the Dr was with patient. So, just the moment before I stepped in for the interview, Stc smsed and mentioned that I am going to be hired again, starting on March under IMU. It was such a good news to cover the 2 screw and bumper bad news. Right after the interview, I called Wei Wei for a lunch at UM…and I went off right after the lunch to take the car. I head back to Monash for the unsettle proposal, and spend mostly the whole afternoon until late afternoon over there.

I thought of SS13 Perodua Service centre. So, I dropped by, and I asked for the screws, they said it was out of stock, and they don’t know when the stock will arrive. So, I head off back to Kota Kemuning. Right after reaching the house, only to my horror….there is another major problem, that I didnt see, and I don’t know how it happened! The passenger side front bumper part was scratched…so obviously seen, when I am standing at the left side. I am so damn heart-broken to see the scratches. I don’t even know how it happened. I know the 2 screws poped out from the back side was my fault, but the front part…I don’t have any idea. All I can guess is that some car that park at the left side caused it either at UM or when I parked at Monash.

In a day itself, my beloved car-cum-BF had both buttock and head injured! Shit, this is a damn bad day for me to go out. I suppose, I as a bomoh Ice, should have trusted that Friday 13th is indeed a bad luck day.

If not because of the balance by the good news that I will have a job on March, I will definitely curse Friday 13th and from this moment onwards, Friday 13th will be blacklisted from my day list to go out!

Believe it or not, this had happened to me…I am not sure how about others,  this is wholly my opinion on Friday 13th. Take it of leave it.

Animal cruelty

I felt such a shame, when I came across this article in TheStar Newspaper.

How on earth that Malaysia still practice cruelty towards animal. Aren’t they realise that animal is a living being too? Furthermore, these are considered pets animal to human.

The ways of killing them is too much! Euthanize are not encouraged unless it is really necessary. Cases like this isn’t fresh in Malaysia. Those dog catchers especially, appointed by thelocal authority deals cruelly with dogs. As I had mentioned in a previous blog, they are using sharp stick, loop, or even gun to catch the dog; dead or alive. If they are still alive, I am sure the dogs are suffering great pains and trauma…

I am very much believing that those who treated the animals with such cruelty, they will have it in return. What comes around goes around… I might not such a religious person, but I do trust that karma does existed!

To those dogs and cats, may God bless you and rest in peace.

Amen.

Stars above the sky seems so bright,

It drafted a beautiful scenary to sight,

How great it is if each stars represent a luck,

And the luck forever there unplucked,

But dark clouds dwell and hidding the light,

The sky looks sour and bitter without light,

How cruel it is for the moon and stars to be hidden,

And darkness reigns for its kingdom…

I felt cheated!

Perak PR gov fallen! BN may form new Perak gov as the 3 independent candidate favour BN…!!!

I thought I can see changes in Perak after 08 March 2008…but now, it seems like really changes…changes of government!

Perakians felt cheated! At least I felt cheated! Hopefully Perak won’t be screwed…