Year 2009

In less than 3 hours, we have to say goodbye to year 2008, and hello to year 2009.

Am I missing a lot? Year 2008 really is a roller-coaster year for me, especially when it almost coming to the end…The so call ‘excitement’ still stick in me…and I am still feeling the ‘hit’. Can I just forget year 2008? Year 2008 reminds me of year 2005, and year 2003. What the heck… Those kind of memories stick with me like…forever…

Year 2009, you better be a damn f**king good year for all of us, no matter how. I am desperately needing a good year and good luck.

Happy New Year…2009

(Sigh…with all those incidents happened, I really find myself don’t know how to spell happy and don’t know the meaning of happy… ==” Anyone?)

Prayer

Our Father in Heaven,

We thank you, Father that You has sent your son, our Lord Jesus Christ, on this holy day, that man may fear no more, as He brought light, and hope, peace and love, and truly secure our faith in Him. As this is a day for remembrance, a remembrance of Your birth, Oh Lord, We repent of all our sins unto You. Forgive us Oh, Lord Jesus, that we are ignorance, we are selfish, we are not fulfilling Your quest unto us. We ask for the forgiveness of sin, as You, Lord God, is merciful, is a forgiver and You are a savior, our redeemer.

By Your birth in the earth, you light up the candle in our life. You fear not the darkness and evil, You show us the courages, and You help us to make it through… May those that is still in lost of their way, will be found by You, May You our shepherd; guide us and lead us into the righteousness. May those who believe and have faith in You will be continues blessed by You, and May Your mighty hands protect and bring us nearer to You.

We pray to You, Oh Lord, that the economy crisis in the world will not be plugging and by Your grace and mercy, Lord, we pray that You will show us signs that the world will be a better place, as all of us are known to You even before we are borned.

May Your love abundantly flows and fill the earth…May everyone on earth will know You as the Son of God, as our Savior, as our Redeemer, as our King…as our Lord.

All this, we pray and seal in Your most precious name Jesus Christ. Amen.

” Praise God from whom all blessings flow,

Praise Him all creatures here below,

Praise Him above ye heavenly host,

Praise Father, Son, and Holy Ghost. “

AMEN.

May you have a wonderful, joyous and blessed Christmas, Christ is born on this special day, lets’ celebrate His birth day in jubilee. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.

p/s: Christmas and New Year is celebrated for 12 days, so, the celebration will be until 6th of January.

Last, but not least….. May the Peace of the Lord will always be with you…. “Peace to you”!!!!

Drinking in lab

Hmm…at least today I felt that I am a bit a happier person. We made a preliminary christmas celebration in the lab. Wen brought in a Vodka, and we just happened to have the thought to taste the vodka, and we ask Wen to make a mix on it. So, as we thought it soon will be Christmas, we just go ahead to drink that Vodka.

Erm….some more…after half an hour later, we all felt the kick and we are definitely sweating all the way already…And Wen is not having kick at all…Maybe next time should pour directly to her…As for lovelybear, she drive back and not really know if she is ok or not. Lets wait until she reply my sms for it.Sigh…I admit, I am now, not so alcoholic anymore…I am not as last time, ok?

WC really throw…after the while…but better for her, as in she will definitely will feel better after that. Shin Hwa is still ok…and she take some sipped. :p Wen, she is now still taking in da vodka.. wuahaha…

Well, after the kick gone, here I am now…blogging this blog :p  Who want to have drink in the lab? Lets go into Stc’s lab… :p

Lost my soul

Why I still felt that my soul is gone, even though I had get another to replace? I just have the feeling that this isn’t the same soul of mine, that used to occupy in me. I just felt lost and totally aimless in my direction.

The situation worsen, day by day…and what more I can express? Those were the days, whereby I hate the fate that lies in me. Now, It’s year 2008, whereby I totally dislike it, and hopefully…soon it will be over…

Soon, but that’s also my another fear. Time flew too fast, until I didn’t realize that there are much, that I have not done, and there are much that I missed, there are also much that I don’t want to involve and there are much that I didn’t talk out.

Forgive me for being so ignorance…I have lost my soul, remember? Let me be…as the search for the soul begins and never will end…

深愛著您

深愛著你

曲：林哲司
詞：林敏聰

你說過愛在這一生裡
有過快樂與心碎
你說過愛在我的身邊
悄悄看我熟睡
聽說你在這刻想我
聽說你在記起我
我也記著每刻往事
也記掛你在哪兒
時日如飛 今天在我心裡
是充滿不褪的記憶
時日如飛 我似呆在這地
任一天天過去 任一生飄過去
任一切飄去再沒法追
心中想你 如今想你
懷念昨天的你
懷念著你 懷念著你
紅著淚眼在記起
心中想你 如今想你
懷念昨天的一切
懷念著你 懷念著你
流著淚自覺得深愛著你

House been broken in!

Argh………………………………..

I really want to make a shout…one loud SHOUT!

I received a called from my sister…yesterday, while I am still at the lab doing lab work. She mentioned something like she saw the door left opened, Oscar is nowhere to be seen, and she was on the way checking the rooms.

And…all my belongings in my room vanish! My laptop, my digicam, my portable speaker(given to me by my bro), my motorola handphone with the charger, my notebook bag, my sling bag, my digi data only sim, and also some cash!

I am like…WTF?! House broken in? I really could not imagine my life to be this bad luck. I just mentioned to my friend, Step a couple of days ago, that I am needing luck right now…And, YES, I really need luck…a very Good Luck!

I need my laptop to do the writing, and some of my data still in the laptop. My digi cam…I still have some pictures inside, whereby I haven’t uploaded yet, and all my folders in the laptop…ALL GONE…together with the laptop…
In no time, I quickly speed to the house, and to my horror, Oscar is nowhere to be found. We search ans search around the housing area for Oscar, and luckily…Oscar responded to the calling and run back. If not, I will be even more heart-broken, due to the lost of those items…and a dog.

Now, teach me, what should I do? I have nothing left. Luckily I drove to work. If I listen to my sister, to sometimes follow them to work, I guess my car will also be vanish! I kept the car key in my room too!

Chinese believe there will be 3 bad luck and 6 good luck in a person…so, are my bad luck all shown up? I really needs the Good Luck…What had been wrong with my life?

When I first moved in to the house, I already so heavy hearted to move. I felt USJ is such a nice place, even though sometime it will be very congested and heavy traffic. My staying at USJ for more than a year, so peacefully, without any break in, robbery, thief…or whatever, you named it…
At Kota Kemuning here, even before the moved in, we already experiencing thief case. All our shower head, tape, and many more that are suppose to be originally in the house, all being stolen. yesterday, all electronic device being stolen… So, can you see the frequent? Only 2 month of moving in, two thief case.

To those who want to buy house, please consider your safety and your belongings safety. Kota Kemuning Berjaya Park is indeed a very new housing area, whereby all the surrounding is so dark at night, due to no light being on despite the lamp post are there. Can you see how dangerous?

Security guard says that they won’t be doing day light rounding, and only will be doing it at night. The community over there also sucks. All of them are having alarm systems, that why they don’t even bother.

I also advice my sister they all to get an alarm for the house, even though we got Oscar…who knows, It is really true…The house got break in!

Shit, Now I am really feeling very devastated and I have no more mood for anything else.

P/S: Trust your instinct. Whenever you felt heavy-hearted to go to a place, or to stay at a place, it indicated that you are not suitable staying there.
I lost the most valuable in the house, and my lost of data in my laptop…it’s priceless…How can one replace that?

Christmas…

Merry merry Christmas, Lonely lonely Christmas…..

This song lyrics very much reminds me of the coming Christmas season. Christmas suppose to be the greatest day of all…well at least for Christian. I will be going back to Kampar and planned to celebrate the Christmas eve at the Kampar Methodist Wesley Church.

However, I have the thought of feeling so lonely this coming Christmas, compare to last year Christmas, and of course, those Christmas days that I spent at Terengganu is tremendous and I was truly enjoying myself, even though there were some little bit controversial with some local over there.

I remember the Priest, ‘Padre Charles Samuel’, I remember Aunty Alice, the priest’s wife, I remember Miriam, the priest’s daughter. Me and my course mate and some other batch mate who happened to attend the same church. St Andrew KT church…is one of the church that I would never forget. I may seems to neglect church services recently…and I am indeed just trying to avoid. Maybe I have to be strong. Avoid doesn’t bring any goodness. I am now truly sorry, but since I had made the decision of escaping…I guess I have to continue escaping…I am a fugitive now…

I had known limited Chinese friends at back at Terengganu. But, I am glad that even though I known less, but I know the best of them. Those friends that I met over there are truly amazing and thank God, for letting me known them.

As for now, am here flashing back all those caroling memories and all those services that we had shared, I felt blessed.

Thank you, St Andrew Church…You really gave me a lot of great memories.
Thank you my Lord, You really provided me love, blessing, hope and faith…

單身旅行

Myolie Wu-單身旅行

被棄掉了便去覓個新對象 為了愉快沒理由不瀟灑 換個扮相換髮型有好處吧 但拒絕再習慣自貶身價 悶局若果衝不破 躲一躲也可　不要逼你許可 只要簽證許可　自己找結果 候機中想法極多　就沒那一句不愛我 到處飛　自己飛出去 離開了過去爽快英勇地放開去 到處飛　置身天空裡 撥一撥頭髮比昨天進取　振作便有生趣 到名店想觸摸　窄巷穿梭過 我一個人已觀察天與地也不錯 有各種險阻　滅傷不只我　誰都有小痛楚 到處飛　自己飛出去 離開了過去爽快英勇地放開去 到處飛　置身天空裡 撥一撥頭髮比昨天進取　振作便有生趣 揀一班客機　自己飛出去 離開了過去爽快英勇地放開去 到處飛　置身天空裡 撥一撥頭髮比昨天進取　振作便有生趣 投入愛　承認錯　可算哭過應該識破 愛護我總多於一個　開朗地喝杯熱茶 忘掉你　忘掉你　才是我 到處飛　自己飛出去 離開了過去爽快英勇地放開去 到處飛　自身天空裡 成熟了　成熟了　也許

Rainy days continue in Malaysia as the remark of another year is passing and a new year ahead. December marks the end of the year, yet it rejoices as it’s the beginning of Jesus Christ’s birth month. December also resembles a month of warmth in families, as in some places on earth, December falls in the winter. And why winter still resembles warmth? Families joined together far and near to celebrate the winter seasons. Although it’s cold and chilling for the season, it’s hot and warm in the families tiding.

As for southern hemisphere, December falls in the Summer season. Although it might felt weird to celebrate Christmas on summer, but actually the Lord birth date was fair to all. It falls into both winter and summer season at the same time in a different region.

Wherever you are, you are remembered in every season, every moment and every second.

Soon, is the rising of the year 2009 and it’s time to say goodbye to year 2008.

Soon, it’s time to end a carrier that’s supposed to be ended some time ago,

And soon, it’s time to end an anticipation…but it’s just a question when…

Dream

I am back to Kampar. That night, I dreamt a weird dream.  I had been suddenly slipped down from my bed, and all I know after that, I fallen asleep right after falling. I didn’t care to even craw onto my bed to continue my sleep, I just sleep on the floor. The next thing I know….

It’s morning. As usual, the Saturday morning will be a market walk. I will cycle to market, make my round…looking at those delicious foods that I had not been eating since I left Kampar…

Hmm….As I cycle around, I noticed that something amiss…BUT what the problem? I couldnot figure out. There a lot of people at that time. Normally Saturday  will be quite congested during 10 am and above. People will wake up a bit later to go for yum cha at the market.

I stopped at Oi Mei’s place. I stepped in for a ‘Cham shuet’-tapau. Hmm…there is still something amiss though…I still cannot figure out. All I know, the vision at the market quite blur…Maybe it’s because of haze again. Haze is really troublesome…it can block our vision from 100 m to 5m…

Anyway, I made my move after I tapauED my Cham shuet. I happily cycle toward the street, whereby we can see Kampar KFC building. At this corner, I saw my friend. I called her, but she didn’t reply my calling. I felt weird, I make a quick U-turn, and pat her shoulder. She then turn at me…and I had the greatest shocked! I didn’t see her face! But…but…how come I know she is my friend? Among all people I see just now, why I could not really realise? What had happened. There is no voice. My calling just now was like a dream. I am now speechless and I dont even dare to near my friends a step nearer. Without saying anything, I cycle toward the market again.

Now, I see…actually…what is amiss in here. I could not even see a single face for all those at the market. That’s why I felt weird at the first place. It’s  not haze, it’s not vision being blocked, it’s actually different! All is different! Why this is like this? I could not believe my own eyes…I am like having the greatest shocked in my life! I must be dreaming though…that’s what I told myself. But then, this friend of mine reached in front of my in no time…uttered something that even shocked me! ” Peng, you don’t be afraid. This is still Kampar. But it’s just different as in phrase…This is HELL. You are in HELL now. Don’t be afraid. People at HELL still live life as normal at the real world. But at here, the only different is that you are now having no face features, just like us. You are already dead! You died yesterday  night, when you fall from your bed. You didn’t realise this, as you haven’t return to the point…the point where you passed away. This means…you need to go to your house now. You will know what had happened, and this is real. I am not telling lies.”

Huh?! What the…? I am dead? But it’s like a dream? I remember I fall from bed, but I could not recall I am dead? And now I am dead?

I cycled with all my strength to reach my house at Aston Settlement, and to my horror…there…my funeral…there my family, there my relatives, and there my dog, and there my house, and there myself…lying motionless at the coffin! And, where are my friends? My family decided not to let any of my friend know…as previously, I left a note in my diary…If one day I would die at early age, I would not want to see my friend in sorrow…I don’t want them to shed tears for me. I don’t want to leave a bad memory in their mind. I want to preserve the living moments with them, I don’t want them to see me dead! And…now I suddenly realise, it’s been heart-breaking to see yourself dead, with non of your friend seeing you for the last time!  But as it was my wishes too…I guess however heart-breaking I am, I will still don’t want to see them to send me out.

There I realised, I am really gone. There I realise, I am actually not in heaven, there I realise it’s easy to be dead, there I realise, dead is not so horrible, the horrible that matter is…after your death, you still see your death.

I knew, I am not dreaming, at that moment…

Slip…slipp..slipp…Yer…what’s that? Argh…my Lucky chai saliva…He is in my room licking me and I m now sleeping on the floor!

Huh?! Am I dead or alive?

I see Lucky chai so real…I can touch him…I can still hears verhicles sound passing  by the road in front of my house, I can still hear the radio’s sound…It’s MYfm…and I can still hear the machine rolling, mixing the cincau at the back of the house?!

Ok…I am dreaming? But it’s so real?

Then I walked outside, I still saw the haze, I still see…..faceless human!

Woah…! I am dead for sure and for real!

Tutt tutt tutt…..What…the….?!

I am awaken by the sound of my alarm. Ok, this is for real. I am really dreaming in my dream. And I am actually at Kota Kemuning house. Not at hometown. I am not at hell and I am not dead.

But hey…this dream is so so…unpredictable. I am not sure why…but there must be a reason why…

So, what’s your dream tonight?

I had dreamt to be in HELL…and I dreamt that I am dead!