Depression?

Almost everytime that I on my msn, my friend left offline messages for me and I found the same pattern of the message. The messages were all so depressing and heart-broken. She send in messages to me stating that she had trouble with works and it’s difficult for her to control her EQ. She admitted to me that she is extremely depressed and sad over some misunderstanding at work as well as at her own family matters. I, of course, cannot comment well for family matters…as in I am an outsider who can only view from outside. I might see clearer as I am not involved, but I might as well not understand better because I am not involved as well. That’s why I would not give further recommendation or my own judgement towards that subject.

Well, for the working depression on the other hand, is a different matter. I do advise to my friend as in think of leaving the organisation, since it did not do her goodness.  Somehow, she prefer to stay for a little bit longer, even though I had recommended her to become a jumper to hoop to other organisation. Yes,,,yes…maybe that’s something that a friend should not suggest and shut up…but as I had seen her to be suffering for the job that she faced a lot of word harassment by senior colleagues, tense working environment, bored with the same situation everyday…and most importantly, felt depressing more and more each day; I guess to ask her to switch a job environment is not a bad idea at all.

I know sometimes, we face difficulties and we needed someone to talk with as well. But as we had already listened to numerous time and it still looks like a neverending story, I kind of feels bored as well. I am bored and sick of it because I had already voice out possibilities of steps to be taken…It is not that I am not listening anymore. It is not that I am not giving any comment anymore. But it just happen to me that I do not think I am suitable to listen to it anymore. I am a human too, whereby I am not trained to take in people’s difficulties and privacies in a professional way. I am only a learner as well. Maybe I did pop out with some extraordinary comments that sometimes helped or maybe the exact opposite. Maybe I can listen to a lot of it, and can even made a conclusion for the situation as well. But who am I? I am just an ordinary person as well. I am build by flesh and blood. I can get tired of listening to frustration of even disastifaction. I am just another human being. I am sorry if I did not react as a real good friend. Maybe I am too tired to see depression. Maybe I, myself is also in depression.

Whatever it is, if you are reading this, my friend…forgive me for putting you up as a story.Forgive me as I could not lend in helping hands, forgive me for not being there with you, and forgive me for not being real to you. Maybe you sensed it, or maybe not. It does not matter to me as in, I might had not treated you good at the time you needed me most, but I also did not treat you bad.  Hopefully, as far as we are still in touch; I will try to share your depression…just that don’t share too much with me…I afraid I myself could not bear the burden…I am also another human being who can made mistakes.

I hope you would not depress yourself for long. Take care and remember that not only I will be standing at your side, but also think of your family and other friends that care for you as well.